I am not speaking about confessing sins or sharing deep dark secrets about ourselves. Although confessing our sins and asking God for forgiveness is a great idea, I’m speaking about a different kind of confession.
For the purpose of this blog post: Confession means what we speak and think about ourselves. Soul (differentiated from Spirit) is our mind, will, and emotions. The mind contains our thoughts and plans; the will our determination; and the emotions are the feelings that fuel our actions.
What we say about ourselves to others and in the confines of our mind determine how we act and what changes we make in our lives. I used to recite the hurts I received at my parents’ hands, how depressed I was, how things would never improve, that I might as well be dead. Instead of pulling me out of depression, I spiraled down. These words were like picking scabs. The wounds never had a chance to heal. The moment I found some relief, I’d remember the past and lose my grip on healing.
Have you spoken words over yourself that tear you down? We need to think about what we are thinking about and what we are saying. Our spontaneous responses are a good indicator of what is holding us back from our healing. Someone once suggested I carry a voice-activated tape recorder around with me for a day. When I played back what I said, I was shocked at the amount of negativity coming from my mouth. I denigrated myself and viewed what others said and did in such negative terms that I was digging myself deeper into the hole of despair.
Words have power. The spoken word gets into our minds and hearts. If someone criticizes or praises us, we replay those words over and over. When criticized I tend to rehearse what I should have said in my defense or the perfect comeback for a false accusation. Praise doesn’t stick as long in my mind as criticism does. After years of being belittled, when someone praises me, I disbelieve the truth of their praises and wonder if they are just being nice.
As we venture on the path of healing, we come face to face with the mirror of our souls. For many years my mirror distorted my image, like I was walking in a fun house with curved mirrors that never portrayed my true self. What does your reflection look like?
Is your image distorted? Is it accurate? Is it colored by the past? What lies are you believing about yourself?
I used to wonder what others thought about me. I became adept at wearing masks. I believed if people knew the real me they would reject me, so I contorted myself to fit the image of what I thought they wanted me to be. I lost myself in the process.
Who are you really?
How many masks are you wielding?
Would you like to know what the One who really loves you as you are thinks? For years I was dubious about God, even after I chose to form a relationship with Him. I tried to be a wallflower, not drawing His attention. If He noticed me, I felt He would slap His forehead and exclaim, “How did she get into My Kingdom?” I was sure that He would kick me out if I made any waves.
I was so far from the truth. Someone gave me a list of Bible verses entitled, “Who am I in Christ?” It comes from a book by Neil Anderson called The Bondage Breaker. I spent years studying these verses and speaking them over my life. It took time, but I am beginning to accept them as truths in my life. For the next few weeks we are going to go over these verses and examine them. If there are any that you need to believe, repeat them.
The Word of God is like a medicine. You can take a Bible verse and repeat it. There is no way to overdose on the truth.
If you want to see a complete list of the verses, I have them written on my other blog. I wrote them in several different Bible translations so you can find one that works best for you.
For now please keep reminding yourself how much God loves you. That you are His precious child. That He cares about you and wants the best for you.
Have a blessed day.